Control ~Kellie Weed

Today’s blog author is Kellie Weed.  Kellie is serving as a ROOM Missionary in San Pedro Sula, Honduras alongside her husband, Joey, and their son, Connor.  Kellie shared her voice with us in Sharing CHRISTmas with Children in Honduras ~Kellie Weed and A good return for their labor~ Kellie Weed

Control: To exercise direction; to dominate; to command.

When I think of a follower of Jesus, these are some of the last things that come to mind. A follower can be defined as “someone that moves or travels behind something or someone.” I consider myself a follower of Jesus; however, too often I find myself trying to take the lead. This is where the desire to be in control becomes a potential danger in my life.
It’s easy to sit back and reflect on verses that talk about God’s will for our lives and trusting in Him (Proverbs 3:5-6, Jeremiah 29:11 just to name a couple familiar ones). Unfortunately, though, it’s not always as easy to put them into practice. It’s refreshing and peaceful knowing that He cares for us and that He has a plan for us. But sometimes when things seem tough, unknown, or even scary, the temptation to take control and act like I know what’s best comes at me in full force.
I wish I could say that every time this happens, I turn to God’s word and prayer. I really do wish that were true. To be honest, it’s not always that simple. To be even more honest, I’m thankful for the lessons I learned the hard way. Serving in Honduras on the mission field, learning a new language, living in a new culture and facing new challenges has allowed me to experience a season of life that is been jam-packed with moments where I’ve been forced to make a decision. A decision to trust in the Lord that He has a perfect plan, or to take matters into my own hands and take the lead.
In a relationship with Jesus, there are many moments that require surrender. There’s the initial surrender when you realize you need Him and that you owe Him your life and surrender it all to Him. But then there are also all of those moments throughout your walk. The moments like Noah had when he followed the Lord’s voice and built the ark while everyone around him ridiculed and laughed at him. The moments like Daniel had when he decided to continuously praise God while being thrown into a lion’s den. The moments like Joseph had remaining faithful when he was falsely accused and thrown into prison.
Yet even in the moments where I fail and I make the decision to try to take the lead, God graciously holds me tight with His loving arms. He uses these moments to bring His Word to life in ways that are indescribable.
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